Well the summer flew by, and like the rest of 2020 it kind of just felt very blah compared to normal. There were certainly some highs, but I felt very stuck in my head for most of it. With the fall coming and because I am taking a leadership class this semester, I am going to aim to try something new. I am going to try to get out of my head, I am going to try to be more mindful about what is going on around me, where I want to go and what I want to get out of the rest of this year. I am going to put my phone down, logout of social media and pay attention to what is going on in life. I am going to spend some time here sharing what it feels like. I am going to spend time thinking about the future and what I want out of it for myself and with my husband.
Last fall I started an evening MBA program and honestly wasn't sure why, other than I thought it was something I should maybe do, and something that would make my mom proud. But my real purpose was to do something for myself. I am a nerd at my heart, let's be real, I still take notes in a spiral notebook, and I am hoping through these classes, semesters, years I can better myself, while maybe learning how to better take in the world. I want to stop caring about what people I don't even really know are doing and start focusing on my friends through actual connections. I don't know if I will epically fail at this, but I have to give it try, and I will start with giving myself a moment to breath and start with a pep talk.
(I had the opportunity to start this semester by writing "welcome to a new school year notes" to 10 school-age kids. Little did I know, I was really giving myself a pep talk for the rest of the year.)